I work for my Faith

Here’s one of my creation myths, a myth that I don't take as direct fact, but that I do take as a close analogy of what happened in the beginning of time. I took this from the Talmud, I don't remember where. I hate using pronouns in reference to divine beings, so I never do.

In the beginning, the universe was homogeneous, entirely composed of Hashem (Hebrew name for God, literally translates as "The Name"), with no boundaries, no time, no matter, nothing but God. Hashem, with infinite wisdom, decided that a heterogeneous universe would provide Hashem with novel concepts that were nonexistent as yet.

First Hashem tried to alter Hashem's self, making ripples and new vortices in the infinite dimensions. But given that Hashem was infinite and occupied everything, there was no action Hashem could take where the outcome wasn't already known. Basically, god was bored with being omnipotent and omniscient.

So Hashem created a space inside Hashem's self where Hashem had no influence, no omnipotence and no omniscience, a place that I call the multiverse. Here's where my theory diverges from the Talmud. The method used to create this space was Mathematics, a grand equation guided by nothing but its own properties. Hashem added a novel aspect to this equation in hopes of making novel phenomena; we know this aspect as randomness.

Hashem designed the multiverse to be separated from Hashem by a divine membrane. This membrane had several properties. First and foremost it was impermeable to Hashem's divine influence, Hashem could not see in, nor could the multiverse see out. But there were certain aspects of Hashem that could pass into the divine membrane if coated in a similar divine membrane, and similar aspects within the multiverse could pass out of the divine membrane.

In order to avoid contaminating the multiverse with omniscience, when Hashem passed bits of Hashem's self into the multiverse, those bits were purged of all memory of Hashem, and only possessed a limited kernel of Hashem's Mathematical Divinity. These kernels would move through the multiverse, influenced by randomness, and eventually exit the multiverse and merge with Hashem. Upon merging, Hashem gains what Hashem sought, novel thoughts and concepts created not by Hashem's omnipotence, but by the random multiverse.

So our souls, what we perceive as consciousness, is in fact a tiny bit of god’s processing power that ignorant of its divine origins. These little sparks interpret the multiverse as Hashem would if Hashem were not omniscient. Then, upon death, we join back together with Hashem.

So the experience of death is remembering that your consciousness was once part of Hashem and realizing that you are becoming Hashem once more.

The reason I feel this is right is because everything that I have ever perceived ends existence in more or less the same way- by becoming indistinct from a larger whole. There is a conservation of matter and energy, so conservation of consciousness follows logically.